Posted Wednesday, June 10, 2015 // 0 comments (+)Lately, I've been trying to purge all the bitterness inside of me. I am aware that it's highly unlikely to do; however, I have already embarked on the journey to become the best me that I can be. I know it sounds cliche and flowery and syrupy and stupid. Although I think it's best if I remain bittersweet, I am trying to minimize the negativity that I carry almost all the time. Some would describe me as optimistic, but I disagree. I carry a sunny disposition; but I am not positive all the time. I am lively and enthusiastic, but not optimistic. There is a time to be bitter and there is a time in which we need to set aside the negativity and simply accept. And that is what I am trying to do.
A year ago, I experienced something that destroyed the person that I was and the perspective that I carried. I find the event more of an inconvenience than a tragedy. Instead of yearning to become the person that I once was, I am reconstructing someone else. I have become less naive and I must apply the lessons I have learned to my daily life.
Listening to - Of Monsters and Men's new album "Beneath the Skin"
Posted // 0 comments (+)It's been approximately one to two years since I have blogged. I was fifteen when I started this and now I am eighteen. My reflection of myself two years ago is what stuns me. I am so different, yet the same. This is why I decided to do this. I need to do this again because it purges my mind of all the overwhelming objects that lurk inside.
Currently jamming to - Of Monsters and Men's new album "Beneath The Skin"
Posted Tuesday, August 13, 2013 // 0 comments (+)I've been listening to a lot of Metric lately. They're a great electronic indie band and have a lot of good listens. One of the songs that I've been crazily addicted to is "Collect Call" from their album "Fantasies". It has a very haunting atmosphere and beautiful lyrics. The metaphor of a collect call is amazing and the lyrics have a lot of meaning and can be interpreted in different ways.
I wanted to make the graphic feature a ballet dancer who is in need of rest and yearning for help, since the lyrics feature a poor relationship and its struggles. I wanted to keep the background gray and muted; meanwhile, spotlight areas with bright reds which represents the problems in the relationship. I am satisfied with the outcome of it. This song is very moving.
Thanks for reading! :)
Jamming Out To: Anberlin - Naive Orleans
Posted Wednesday, June 26, 2013 // 0 comments (+)If there was someone who told you that you could not do something, what would you do? It's the only thing you want to do and you know you can do it. I know I'm always trying to be the best person I can be even though I feel at times, it is very hard. It's easy to sympathize with others and put yourself in their shoes, in my opinion. It's a simple process and when you are understanding, everything falls into place. When you're empathetic, you're supposed to receive positive results. However, if that was the case, then I shouldn't be frustrated and panicking about the future and what will happen to me. I always act as if I'm so sure of what I'm doing and I try to maintain a positive outlook. It's because I want everything to be alright. I want to feel that security and I want to know that what I'm doing is going to hurt someone else.
This is the hard part though. Someone else thinks the same thing. Someone else is beyond sure of himself or herself. But both of you are on opposite sides. What are you supposed to do when you come upon a person that you cannot empathize with? I'm failing miserably and I do not know what I can do to help the situation. Well, I'm good at helping other people and solving their problems, but I'm terrible at my own. It's funny. How do I find a way out? When the other person fails to see through your eyes and what's right, you've got nowhere to turn to. I didn't know or think that I'd be so incapable. I didn't think that others would see me as weak or foolish or unintelligent. I didn't think that could happen when I know that I'm strong and prepared and ready. I am self-sufficient and independent.
I don't want to wait for doors to open. I want to open them myself, but opportunity is hard to find, although not limited. I want to keep pushing myself, but I also want to stop. I feel a plethora of emotions at the same moment and I might just explode if I fail to sort them out. I despise being looked down on, everyone does. It's as if I'm not allowed to have a brain and I'm not allowed to think for myself although that's all I've ever done. I despise having others hold me back, pulling me back, stabbing me in the back, looking back, never coming back, not having my back. Yet, I feel a sense of relaxation coming upon me and I want to breathe. I want to breathe. I have to remember how to. My inner self tells me to calm down because everything will be okay.
I'm struggling to not make my struggle my identity.
By the way, the title is completely unrelated unless you can find a way to symbolize it. Good luck.
Posted Wednesday, June 19, 2013 // 3 comments (+)Dashboard Confessional - "The Brilliant Dance"
Ahh, such a good song. Such a good, good, good, good, good song! I love Dashboard Confessional and this song is very melancholy and sweet. It was a great contribution to this graphic I made. Go give it a listen! It's so sweet and heart melting. ;)
This is the first one I made.
This is the second one I made.
Which one do you like better? :)
AboutOh hello. I am Chia and I am 18. Welcome to my humble abode of inspiration and creativity. Unicorns and any form of art and expression are my favorite things. I am a beauty/fashion/arts enthusiast and I feel too much. This is my diary.